The Sum of an Elephant

There is a parable out of India about three blind men who are brought before an elephant and asked to explain what the elephant is like.  One of the men reaches out and touches the leg and concludes that an elephant is thick and round and much like a column or pillar.  Another man puts his hand on the trunk and concludes that an elephant is slender and flexible and must be something like a snake.  The last man pushes on the elephant’s side and determines that it is broad and unmovable like a large wall.  Sometimes the parable includes five or six men, and you can see from the picture above than there is no shortage of perspectives one could take.  The moral of the story is that everything is relative.  Each of the blind men told the truth based on their experience with the elephant, but no one man’s truth could exclude another’s.  No truth took precedence, even in the face of completely opposite claims.

I think this parable is an incredibly beneficial illustration for our world today, but for a different reason.  If our quest is to find out what an elephant really is, then what are we doing asking blind men when there is one who came to give sight to the blind.  Why trust a man’s limited experience with an elephant when there is one who created elephants?  The religious discussion is full of men espousing experiential truth from their own narrow perspective, but God, the creator and sustainer of the universe, has chosen to speak to us through His Word, the Bible.  We should place a higher priority on God’s word because His perspective is infinitely wider than ours.  He knows more about elephants than 6.7 billion blind men ever could.

Perhaps you don’t believe in God, or that He has communicated to man through the Bible.  That is ok.  My point here is not to convince you of His existence, but to simply show that He is necessary if we are ever to know the true purpose for our existence.  Without the broad perspective of the One who set the universe in motion, we have no hope of true understanding.  We are merely blind men groping around in the dark, thinking the sum of an elephant is a snake.

Rolling Over 101

Hudson on the FloorThe other day, Jim, Hudson and I were with a group of friends, and Hudson was lying on the floor, playing. As Hudson ever-so-accidentally threw his legs to one side, I erupted, “Did you see that?! He almost turned over!” Now, this would not have been the first time that Hudson had turned over, much less almost turned over, but nevertheless, I was caught up in the moment and overjoyed with my son’s developmental progress.

I don’t know if any of you ever have trouble understanding the love of God, but I can tell you that I sure do! I know firsthand how easily my heart wanders from my Heavenly Father, and how wicked my heart is (as well as the hearts of all mankind, believers and nonbelievers alike), but the Bible still says things like:

“But you, O Lord, are a God merciful and gracious, slow to anger and abounding in steadfast love and faithfulness.” (Psalm 86:15)

And

“For you, O Lord, are good and forgiving, abounding in steadfast love to all who call upon you.” (Psalm 86:5)

The Bible is chock full of passages that speak of God’s unending love and grace. Nevertheless, I look at my life, and the fact that there are so many sins which I seem to be worlds away from overcoming, and I just find it hard to comprehend that God really does look on me with favor in spite of all my shortcomings.

But as I sat on the floor watching my precious son the other day, it hit me: as Hudson was kicking his legs around, I knew full well that he still has a lot of developing to do, but I was not disappointed that he cannot yet turn over on demand. There are many things that Hudson cannot yet do, including crawling and sitting up. And he is worlds away from talking and walking – and especially in the way that a mature, fully developed and physically capable adult can talk and walk. In fact, Hudson is nowhere near what Jim and I want him to be able to accomplish eventually. But my attitude toward Hudson is anything but disappointment. Hudson didn’t even know what he had done the other day, but his proud Mommy made sure the whole room knew that he had almost turned over.

Now, of course, if Hudson stopped developing, or later showed no interest in learning new things, I would be concerned. And, as he gets older, his willful disobedience will bring disappointment for me and punishment for him.  But as long as he is continually progressing, I will continue taking more pictures and videos than I know what to do with.

In the same way, God knows that spiritual maturity doesn’t come in a single day; it is a lifelong process. We have milestones to reach throughout our spiritual journey, some of which take longer to reach than others, and we all reach them in a different order than the next person. We don’t even realize all of the milestones that lay ahead of us, but God knows what our spiritual growth process will look like.

God knows better than anyone that I am a work in progress. And if I continually seek Him, and love Him, and strive to be more like Him, He will delight in me and help me grow at a pace that He knows is possible for me. And as I develop, I can just picture my loving Father erupting in heaven, “Did you see that?! She almost turned over!”

Likewise, God loves each of you so very much, no matter where you are on your spiritual journey, and even if you are not on any spiritual journey. He loves you regardless of what you have done, and He has provide a way for each of us to have a right relationship with Himself: Jesus’ death paid our sins’ penalty so that we can be children of the perfect Father. Who can resist that kind of love?

Provision

This has been a big week for us.  We started classes on Wednesday morning (first up: James & Hebrews) and have loved every bit of it so far.  While we are in class, Hudson spends his time flirting with the lady infants in the nursery.  Everyone loves him.  Everyone.  I’m not making that up.  The school has filled up with a lot of new faces mixed in with the familiar ones, and we are excited about getting to know them over the course of the year.  Life in this community has it’s challenges, but there is also much we are grateful for.

We have never doubted God’s faithfulness to provide for us here, and He has continued to show us that He is able to meet our needs.  Last year I had the opportunity to do some odd jobs for the owner of a local used book store, and upon returning to town earlier this month, I reestablished contact with him and was offered more work.  Last week, he offered me a job in his book store with the perfect amount of hours and flexibility.  I’m pretty new to the whole retail/cash register thing, but I’m getting the hang of it pretty quickly.

This Jackson economy may be shaky, but our God is a rock!

Thoughts from abroad

In the shade of the back porch, the thermostat reads 95 degrees.  Our summer is almost over – in just a couple days we will load up the car for the nth time and make the thousand mile trek back to Jackson, MI, our home (for one more year) at the New Tribes Bible Institute.  It has been an incredible summer.

As if our time reconnecting with friends and family throughout Texas was not enough, we had the opportunity to join my (Jim’s) family on a vacation that took us through Italy, and briefly, to Paris and London. There is nothing so humbling as seeing buildings that pre-date America be described as “relatively new.”  And to sit beneath the really old sites, like those at the Forum in Rome, was almost overwhelming.

This summer has also provided me with some down time to think about what has become a repeated observation during our travels.  I have been studying through the book of Hebrews as preparation for our next semester, but one passage continues to stick out at me.  In the midst of his explanation about the nature of the ministry of Christ, the author pauses to warn his audience:

About this we have much to say, and it is hard to explain, since you have become dull of hearing. For though by this time you ought to be teachers, you need someone to teach you again the basic principles of the oracles of God. You need milk, not solid food, for everyone who lives on milk is unskilled in the word of righteousness, since he is a child.  But solid food is for the mature, for those who have their powers of discernment trained by constant practice to distinguish good from evil. (Hebrews 5:11-14, ESV)

There is a similar passage in 1 Corinthians 3.  Paul, while addressing a severe dysfunction in the unity of the Corinthian church, explains that spiritual truth can only be discerned by spiritual people, and laments that he could not address them as such.

But I, brothers, could not address you as spiritual people, but as people of the flesh, as infants in Christ.  I fed you with milk, not solid food, for you were not ready for it. And even now you are not yet ready, for you are still of the flesh. For while there is jealousy and strife among you, are you not of the flesh and behaving only in a human way? (1 Corinthians 3:1-3 ESV)

Both passages suggest that the Christian life is meant to have growth.  In the same way that it would be abnormal for an infant to remain an infant instead of growing into an adult, it is against the nature of a believer to remain a baby in the faith.  Of course, perpetually childlike believers are common, and commonly ignored, for reasons Paul described – we live in the flesh.  But this summer, the metaphor took on a deeper meaning for me.  As Rachel and I traveled throughout Texas and Europe with our four-month-old son Hudson, we noticed some profound differences between his trip and ours.

The Duomo dominates the Florence skyline. Milk dominates Hudson's thoughts.

Some aspects of being a baby are pretty nice.  You sleep when you’re tired, which is most of the time.  When you’re not sleeping, you just make some noise and mommy shows up to feed you.  Once you’re done, someone changes your diaper.  When you go somewhere, you’re either carried or put in a car seat.  Sometimes your car seat is attached to a stroller.  You don’t really care, since you’re probably asleep anyway.  You never worry about your needs being met, because the plans are always made with you in mind. Life as an infant is pretty easy.

But as a baby, you don’t know that you’re missing anything.  The richness of your surroundings is never perceived, because your focus remains on the foundational aspects of life.  Maybe a hint of some deeper purpose creeps into your mind when your heart bursts with joy at the sight of mom or dad, but maybe you just have gas.

Diaper change at the Colosseum.

Did Hudson know that the gentle (and sometimes not so gentle) bounce of his stroller was his dad’s feeble attempt to navigate two thousand year old cobblestone streets next to palaces built by emperors? Was he aware that just beyond his closed eyelids marched hundreds of years of the world’s most important art?

While I peered out at the Colosseum trying to figure out whether I should be in awe or despair at the enormity of the ancient architecture and the horrendous events that unfolded there, Hudson was busy filling his diaper.

Of course the list goes on.  No one is surprised at Hudson’s lack of interest in anything not related to Rachel because he is a baby.  Babies need help to eat, and to be calmed down when they are startled, and to be rocked to sleep; but they grow.  They learn to use their hands so they can put food in their mouths.  They learn to walk and to go places without your help.  They don’t stay babies.

This is the spiritual tragedy that Hudson so easily relates.  We have men and women who have been given new life by the blood of Christ, but never mature into members of the body of Christ.  They go to church as if they were consumers looking for the best deal.  “I’m not being fed,” they claim. The word of God is opened and expounded in their hearing, but never contemplated.  The delivery wasn’t right.  I prefer another translation.

And the tragic part is that we have members of churches who are content to experience the spiritual life vicariously through pastors and other church members, being physically present before an awesome God yet never even attempting to contemplate the ramifications of the encounter.  They think that they have a part in the experiences of those around them, but they remember nothing.

Rachel and I are about to start our third semester of training with New Tribes Mission.  My hope for us this year is that we will not be content to ride on the coat-tails of our teachers and rely on their experience and appreciation of our majestic God.  I hope we can grow beyond a focus on the foundations of faith and learn to open our eyes to the richness and beauty and depth that Christ proclaims in His word.  May we, like Hudson, continue to grow.

Trevi Fountain, Rome
Tower Bridge, London
View from the cemetary, Vernazza, Italy
The beach at Monterosso, Italy
The Colosseum, Rome

The weight of sin

This past Sunday we had the joy of returning home to worship with New Life in College Station.  It was awesome to see so many faces that we love and join in the worship of our amazing God.  One of the deacons, Kyle, delivered a teaching on Psalm 78, in which he encouraged us to faithfully pass on the truths about God to the generations that follow, and to understand that at no time are we immune to the derailing force of sin in our walk with the Lord.

Kyle’s message convicted me about the seriousness of my sin, and it reminds me of a story that haunts me.  It is about a young man in a tribe in Papua New Guinea that was hearing the gospel message for the first time.  As he sat watching the Bible teachers and some helpers as they acted out Jesus’ trial before Pontius Pilot, he muttered to himself, “Kill him.  He has to die.”  The young man had attended the teachings since the beginning.  He had learned the Old Testament stories about God and His interaction with the patriarchs.  He had learned how God hated sin and had provided Israel with the sacrificial system so that they could be restored to him, but also that the system was inadequate and a greater provision was promised that would once and for all provide forgiveness for sin.

He and his people had fallen in love with Jesus as they heard the stories about Him.  They believed He was the greatest man who had ever lived.  But this young man sitting on the bench came to a painful realization.  Jesus was the greater provision.  The sacrifice for sin requires blood (Lev. 11:17).

He had to die.  For this young man, the only hope of salvation was for Jesus to die as the lamb of God.  He didn’t want it, but he knew he needed it.

And I wonder if I am aware of my great need as well.  I have lived much of my life in appreciation of the sacrifice of God’s son on the cross, and aware of the tremendous benefit I have received from it, but am I content to pretend that I am no more than a fringe beneficiary?  After all, my sins aren’t as bad as most, right?  Christ had to die for others, or if I must be included, then for the collective.  But I deny the weight of my own sin.

Like the young man from a tribe in Papua New Guinea sitting on a bench watching the trial of Jesus, I realize that the cross, the terrible, painful death of a sinless man, is not merely beneficial.  I need it.  My life depends on it.  For Jesus to be God’s final provision for my own life, he had to die.

And I am appalled.  And I am grateful all the more.

Texas Schedule

We love being back in Texas.  I thought we’d give a quick update on our summer schedule for those of you we’ve not yet made it around to see.

Now – June 21st/22ndish – Abilene area

June 22nd – 24th – DFW

June 25th & 26th – Brenham

June 27th – July 2nd – College Station

July 2nd & 3rd – Waco

July 4th & 5th – DFW

We can’t wait to see all of you!!